I've been debating for about a week now whether or not I wanted to do a year-end recap this year. I did one last year and loved it because it showed everything that I had accomplished in a year's time, everything I'd gotten to experience, and I was able to leave out the bad things. But the difference between this year and last is that last year was a pretty good year for me. I didn't lose many people or go through things in any degree what I've gone through this year.
However, I feel I owe it to myself to look at everything I've been through this year and see how much of what's happened this year has made me who I am - which means things both good and bad. So here we go.
As the month went on, I prepared to start high school. As a last vacation of the summer, my brother and my grandparents and I went to the lake. We came home on August 20th, and my amazing back pack had come in. Also, on August 20th, I talked to Jimmy for the last time. We also went to a Bengal's pre-season game that night.
I started high school, and only one week into it, my life changed. The month of August, ended on a bad note as well, when we were informed of the worst possible news. My Hero, SGT James C. Robinson fell to indirect fire in Afghanistan on August 28th, 2010 as part of Operation Enduring Freedom. I can't even tell you how horrible I felt, and still feel. I pray to God nobody ever knows this pain, though I know others will. In September, we brought Jimmy home for good and said "goodbye". Also in September, Jim's youngest daughter turned 3.
My cousins Amber and Corey found out they were having a boy and I met Jackson Pearce.
In October, I attended my first homecoming dance and dressed as Jimmy for Halloween. In November, we had a baby shower for my cousins and we celebrated the hardest Thanksgiving ever.
So to sum it up, this year has been an odd one. I've become a different person in the course of this year - and I'm not sure yet if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but I can't go back to who I was. I'm hoping the New Year is much better, though I'm sure it couldn't be much worse. However, I'm almost not wanting New Years to come, and I'm not quite sure why.
I'd like to take a moment and say Thank You to everyone who has been there for me the past four months. It's been tough, but having you people has really helped. I love you guys - if you're reading.