Soooooooo. I'm blogging today from my desk, where I have been sitting for the past 20ish minutes trying to figure out what the bleep I am doing for my AP history summer assignment. I have read over the handout my teacher gave me at the end of the year I don't know how many times. His instructions, I feel, are vague at best. He gives us ideas for things to read for in both books that we are supposed to compare/contrast, but he doesn't tell us EXACTLY what to read. Which bothers me. I'm not sure if I'm reading the right thing, you know? And it's starting to freak me out because my goal was to start my paper by this Friday to get enough of a start on it so that I could turn it in by August 3rd (that's when it's due - not the first day like a normal teacher, although we do have MORE stuff due the first day as well).
Anyway, I'm starting to panic. I haven't started reading the book for my English assignment, and I still have a long way to go in my writing exercises packet for history (also due August 3rd). It dawned on me last night that we are already half way through July. What. The. Bleep.
And as much as I'm freaking out, I can't help but procrastinate. I can't help it. I'm an expert at procrastination. But the thing is, I don't do anything productive when I procrastinate. Literally, my excuse today was: "Oh! I need to blog today! I'll start reading Democracy in America later today!" Yeah, that probably won't happen.
But I know I need to. But I also want to write REALLY BADLY, but every time I open up a document, I just . . . can't. I don't know what it is. I can't find the words. Not to mention, I start thinking about all I need to do.
It just doesn't feel like summer. : (
As I read this over, I really start hating life. BLEH. So I think I'll leave this with a line that I've been using a lot lately: I DON'T WANNA GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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