This post has nothing to do with Mr. Darcy, but Tuesdays suck and sometimes? Sometimes you just need a Daily Dose of Darcy. (OMG that's alliteration!)
I'm writing this post a little bit in advance, though, because I'm thinking I'm going to be busy on Tuesday. Also, I am doing everything I can to procrastinate and not do the reading I was supposed to do over break. I'm sure I'll get it done. . . eventually. Before Monday. Maybe. It'd just be so much easier if Hawthorne would just spit out what he wanted to say.
That could actually, somewhat, seg-way into my talking point today. Which, believe it or not, is actually writing related for the first time in a long time.
Over this break, I've had a lot of inspiration to write. From movies I've watched or books - actually, only one book - I've read, I've found myself really wanting to write. But as soon as I pull up the word document, I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing. I know where the story is going, but the words are trapped inside my finger tips. It's frustrating.
And it's not even just my big project. It's poems, too. I have so many little verses on sheets of paper that have no accompanying verses. Things that pop into my head are written down and then when I re-visit them to make something out of some of them, I get stuck.
I don't like being stuck.
I really don't like not knowing how to get un-stuck.
I've talked to writers who'll write over 5k words a day. Me? I'm lucky if I write one sentence. Most days? Unfortunately, most days I don't get to write at all. I try to utilize breaks from school to accomplish things, but with family time and homework and everything else that needs done, I feel like it's not getting anywhere.
And I'm not writing this to sound ungrateful. I'm am so grateful that I love writing, that it is my dream and what I want. And I am willing to work for it, don't get me wrong there, either.
Maybe it's because I haven't found the right story yet, or maybe it's because I'm at the beginning of the story I'm trying to write. The two most terrible parts of a story to write are the beginning and the ending. It's either setting everything up or taking everything down, and making sure all ends tie together into a nice and pretty red bow.
And even though it's a first draft and I'm only like 13 pages into it? I kind of get all panic-y and I don't know why.